Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Boss, you should have

I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believin you
You don't know what I'm feelin
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

(Beyonce - Listen)

I watched 'Dreamgirl' the movie a couple of weeks ago. I liked it very much. In fact, I like most of Musical (films), e.g. Mary Poppin, Sound of Music, Grease, and many other Musicals. I found Musical very romantic and touching. 'Dreamgirl' is one of a kind. I didn't know that this film was a musical, I thought it was just an ordinary black, drama movie.

Why do I quote this lyric?
First, I like this song, long before I realized the touching lyric. It was telling us how desperate Beyonce was in her marriage. She was married to a guy, which has never acted as her husband. She was like being in an excile. Second, when I realized how the lyric is actually also picturing my current feeling, I jumped from my seat, saying "yes, this is what I trully feel at this very moment!"

I am now following the voice in my heart, following God's voice.

Lord, show me Your way, show me my next journey.
Sorry for giving up.


Thursday, March 22, 2007

Nie Returns

It has been a few weeks.

I feel very tired and depressed. I think, it is the most appropriate statement that can picture how I really feel.

It hasn't been changed.

Give me a moment to think.