Press Conference: Don’t judge me by my cover

Forgiving is one case, but forgetting is another. It is always the case for me. I am a very forgiving person (sorry for acknowledging myself), I can easily say, “it’s okay. I forgive you;” but I can’t fully accomplish the forgiving process, because I cannot complete the hardiest part – forgetting.

Is my forgetting supply scarce?

I feel sorry for myself living in the limitation of forgiveness, but I always get upset when I remember certain things that happened in the past, that were caused by some people, whom accidentally I called ‘friends’. And, again, I fail to complete the forgiveness process.

Some people judged me for being too ‘holy’ (anyhow, no one is holy but God, right?). And I hate to be judged like that. They thought that I perceived them as the Gentiles and judged them for being too out-of-control. Anyway, are we now living in the ‘Paul and Barnabas’ era?

FYI only, I never see anyone that way. But, I think, I owe them an apology for making them felt that way. For those who feel that it is you whom I am talking about, I am sorry. I never see you as the ‘gentiles’ or the ‘bad guys’; I couldn’t get closed to you because I felt inferior. I felt there was nothing that I could do to become part of you. (it is up to you to believe)

Another issue that I would like to clarify is I am not a perverted, naïve girl that wanders to flirt with any guys. I am sorry for being too kind, if it was how you perceived me. I have learned from my past experiences. I did wrong. I was, too, kind in someway, to some people and, in result, they took it differently.

Fewh, now, I think we are equal, 1 – 1. I will now stop nagging about you being cruel and stabbing my back; and please stop talking about me. Let us now walk in our own paths and stop fussing each other’s business.

I don’t think that my forgetting jug is empty; I just need to get this business straight.

Please no more hatred between us.