My untold story, unposted letter

Dear Mrs X,

I am very sorry that I have been avoiding you these last few days. I will assure you that I don’t hate you at all. I still care about you, but I am just speechless.

Knowing that you are getting a divorced has shed my heart. I am really brokenhearted. Imagining you walking away from that door, holding your daughter’s hands and waved to your hubby, I cried a little.

I don’t know whether I should be happy for you or be grieved, because I really am speechless. One hand, I know that you have been burdened by lots of problems in your marriage; on the other hand, I adore your family. I have learned a lot from you. I ever dreamed to have such a happy family, like yours.

Thus, I really am brokenhearted.

But, you have chosen your way. And, I cannot support what you have done, because I think it ain’t right.

Where is your idealism? Where is your vow to love him no matter what, for better, for worse? Where is your vow in front of God?

And now you are with another guy? Should I trust you that you actually have a problem in your marriage?

I am not judging your life.
I am just grieving, looking for someone to blame.

I am sorry, but I will still avoid you for the next couple of days, or weeks, because I really don’t know what to say or do.

All the best,

Nia