Acute homesick

If I were Queen Beatrix' niece,
I would have booked my ticket to Indonesia this morning.

If I were not working my ass to earn some money and spare some, too
I would have flown home

If I were not having a dissertation about EU and TCS
I would have been with my family and my dog, just under the same roof, sharing the laugh, day and night.

If I were insane,
I would have called Oom Rob from Cathay for a ticket to Indonesia

If I were a spoiled baby,
I would have called my mom, cried on the phone, begged and nagged to go home as soon as possible.

If I were employed by Microsoft, as Bill Gates' personal secretary,
I would have flown to Indonesia this morning, with the first flight to Indonesia (if it is possible first class please), and back to the Netherlands on Tuesday morning, just before the meeting with my FD tutors.

Since I am VERY healthy,
I am just a poor student,
and my brain is just tranquil,
all I do is sitting here, behind my laptop, sometimes crying, sometimes getting upset, sometimes just being silent, and if I am brave enough, I will pray to God asking Him to let me go back home as soon as possible because I terribly miss my family and, of course, Bang Tepy.

Since my amazing parents have sent me here to study, which actually in purpose to make my brain to operate rationally,
all I do is working very hard with my FD,
bothering ulma with my emails and files about FD (sorry for this, ul!),
spending my time doing nothing but researching, browsing, and writing FD draft,
and praying that everything will go smoothly and finish on time
and that's why,.. I proudly present our (me and ulma) FD blog : http://nia-ulma.blogspot.com/

Oh, this acute homesick has defeated me!
Lord, help me.

I wanna go home,..