This Christmas Makes Me Cry

Celebrating Christmas in the Netherlands is something I have wanted so bad, since my return to Indonesia; especially 2006, I cried so bad missing my friends and family in the Netherlands.

Yet, this year, having the opportunity to celebrate the joy of Christmas here, I regret my longing, saying in my heart "I wish I could be home for Christmas".

This year is indeed a tough year.

This Christmas makes me thinking of my grandparents, especially my grandma, who passed away last August, some weeks before my depature to the Netherlands.

I dedicate this song, and this Christmas, to my grandma.

Miss you, grandma


I think of loved ones who’ve passed away
And I pray their resting in a better place
I think of memories of years gone by
And sometimes Christmas makes me cry

I think of soldiers across the sea
And Sometimes I wonder why its them instead of me
For my freedom they give their lives
And sometimes Christmas makes me cry

Tears of thankfulness, tears of hope
I cry tears of joy at Christmas cause I know
There is peace on earth for every heart to find
And sometimes Christmas makes me cry

I think of families, I think of home
And say a prayer for those who spend this time alone
Cause love can reach out into a silent night
And that’s why Christmas makes me cry

I think of Mary and the virgin birth
And I’m amazed at how much God thinks we’re worth
That He would send His only Son to die
And sometimes Christmas makes me cry

Click here to listen to the song