Notepad 19 September 2008

Capturing people coming and going in the airport has given a different understanding about love and life. As some people were walking towards the gate, I saw some gloomy faces. I am not sure whether they are sad because they have left the past; or are they pressured becuase they are about to face the new future? There are too some happy faces.

Othe people were walking towards arrival gate. Some of them have happy faces. The same question has aroused: are they happy because they are coming to see the new future? or are they cheering because they have left the past? There are too some sad faces.

As for me, I am still not sure what kind of face expression I should give. A couple of days ago I was crying till I ran out of tears; yet this morning, even a few moments before I departed, I didn't cry a tear. I don't want to suspect that I has bottled up my sad feelings, because I am not used to that anymore. But, I am perplexed now: am I sad or am I happy?

How about if I say half-half? I do feel a little bit sad because I left my family behind, especially because I have left them with a new problem I created. Sigh,.... I would certainly miss them.

I am also happy, because, as you know, my boyfriend is waiting for me. Bunch of friends are desperate to see me, at least it is what they wrote in their e-mails. I am too excited to study again. Yeah.... how cool is that to become a student again. Just like Gossip Girls or One Tree Hill.

Oops,.. okay,.. stop,.. I think I have watched too many TV series lately.

But, the bottomline is, I am happy; yet I am sad.

So, as I am about to approach my gate in about 30 minutes, I will figure out which face expression I would give.